Consider this your invitation. Or something to respond to! I want to sit with you and enjoy your design - as a tasty treat. I have taste cognition so prepare yourself for the use of food as our descriptor.

My design has me understand the world in a way that is experienced through the lens of direction, the unique self and the possibility that is available for everyone. These are the things I am here to express for myself and for others. My design also craves depth and luxury in my interactions. This is why you’ll find a few options on how to dine together - the taster, the long lunch or the degustation. I don’t want to eat on the go - It’s a hard pass on the indigestion that would cause!

I once heard someone say.. “there is no quick answer in Human Design” and I loved that. This isn’t a quick fix or something to graze over. There are layers upon layers to your design and while you of course don’t need to understand all aspects of it unless you want to come down the rabbit hole (hello fellow projectors), I find it delightful to think that the person you’re dining with has looked at them for you. As if they knew your favourite food, wine and setting and picked a restaurant that suits you perfectly. I want to invite you to sit, digest and mull over your design with me in slow luxury…

Show me the menu…

The experiment. That’s it isn’t it. That’s what human design hands you. Human design isn’t something that asks you to believe anything. It doesn’t ask for blind faith. It’s not a prescription. It’s an experiment. It’s a series of questions and statements you can test. There are aspects of form principle that ask you to explore with changing the way you nourish yourself and the environments you’re in but only when your authority and strategy give you a YES for it. And, since authority and strategy trump all, it can just as well give you a no to those things once you’ve experimented with them. It asks you to differentiate your life and the way you move through the world to suit your mechanics and to stop making decisions from your conditioning.

Let me back track. Human Design is a channeled system. It was channeled in a way that brought together a number of wisdom traditions and bridged them with the world of quantum physics and epigenetics. Throughout the system you can see aspects of the IChing, Astrology, The Kabbalah Tree of Life and The Vedic Chakra system. These systems in combination with DNA mapping and the impact neutrinos (there’s the quantum physics) have on our DNA at the time of our birth (and throughout our life, thanks to transit energy) give us our unique energetic blueprint. Our blueprint gives us both an understanding of how our vehicle (the body) is built to best run and our personality (who we think we’re here to be). It gives us our strategy (how we are designed to use our energy to move through the world) and our authority (how we are built to make decisions).

Our blueprint can then be used to provide us insights into how we are being conditioned by the energy around us and what patterns we will see playing out in our lives. It provides a tool to help us differentiate into our most unique self. Once we can see through our blueprint what we are and how we’re designed to move through the world we can also see clearly who we are not - where we have been conditioned by others (as well as societal norms). We then begin about our experiment - deconditioning aspects of our lives that we’ve taken on because someone else did it that way or because it’s the way it’s always been done. And that’s the fun - playing with the permission to let go of things that were never for us and experimenting with natural inclinations of the body.

There is no right or wrong, worse or better in human design - each type, activation and design has its unique gifts and shadows which provide the basis for a beautiful experiment with life. This is one of the things I love most about HD. Each person is so uniquely designed - there’s no way we could be expected to function within the same homogenised systems or advice. Once I started looking at people’s charts my capacity for compassion sky rocketed. The variations in the way we are designed to think, take action, learn, nourish ourselves - the differences are endless. Once that landed, I began rooting for everyones individuation.

My experiment is young. In its infancy. They say cellular deconditioning takes 7 years (since this is the time it takes for your body’s cells to complete a full regeneration). By that measure I am only just half way through my FIRST cycle. And let’s be honest, for the most part of the first few years in which I had awareness of HD I did not experiment properly with my strategy and authority. I was aware of my design. But it’s hard to stop initiating or responding when that’s what the world teaches you to do. Wait for the invitation - and not just any invitation, the one that comes with true recognition. I am still learning how that works in my life and what that actually feels like. I catch glimpses though. The last few months I’ve gotten more recognition for more of my definition and design and it truly does hit differently. It’s warm and cosy.

I also play a tug of war with my brain - it wants to know the system. Of course it does - I’m a projector. I want to master the system. But then I run into my pattern of over intellectualising what I am learning instead of actually implementing and embodying what I’m learning. There is a huge difference in mind level knowledge and body deep wisdom. That’s where the experiment really does flourish. Playing with things like my determination, cognition, environment, the way my open centres influence my day to day conversations while I wait for my invitations allow me to confirm the knowledge. They give me lived demonstrations of the things I’m learning about. And for me, in this process, my own learnings that become externalised (hello 4th line) lead me to my invitations, which makes the experiment all the more interesting because I know I need to embody first - speak and externalise (self projected line 4) and share how it uniquely works for me (defined throat and G). There is no short cut here. I can’t skip that step, my design will not allow me to skip ahead - that will only lead me to bitterness. So even though I did a reader training over 18 months ago. And have been reading, listening and studying the system. I need to know it in my body first before I can share anything. I truly NEED to experiment (first phase line 3) - that’s what I’ve been doing and then my excitement for the system boils over and I share what I’m learning with my friends and people in my circle. And that’s where the recognition has been coming from. And that’s where the invitations have hidden themselves.

All to say - I love this process. And I’m not pretending that I’m an expert in this system yet. I can’t be. My cells are still learning what it’s like to actually be me - to feed myself, place myself and function according to my strategy and authority. But I can definitely promise that I’m deep down the rabbit hole. Learning things and storing them in being so that I can allow my mind to be used as an outer authority for someone else’s experiment. I am good at asking & answering questions and seeing things in a way that other’s don’t. I am good at picking the right words for things to land in people’s awareness. I also just really love sharing how things are landing in my own existence. Hence the musings. I want to share my experiment, because that is all apart of my learning process.

I believe that who we are uniquely flavours how we see the world and how we take something like the human design system and apply it. So I think it’s important for you to have the chance to see who I am.

I am a Projector - I know myself through the other. I crave depth and once you’re in my field you’ll get my focused attention. I am inconsistent. I know this and don’t apologise for it. I am a life long student - I thrive when I know the details of the system (hence the relationship with HD!)

My authority is self projected - so you know there will be a lot of talking. I may monologue but this is where you’ll find my magic. That’s the potency of my expression. I only have two defined centres - the G centre and the throat so my expression of who I am, the directions I know and the unique character I play will flavour everything for me. I find that this chart definition allows me to see uniquely into the other, their direction and how good it can be.

I’m a 4/6 profile- my unconscious wisdom is being learnt and gathered through my relationships. The quality and deliciousness of my relationships determines the richness of my life. I am certain that my success falls into my lap when I lean into my existing relationships instead of looking towards strangers. I am not quite on the roof yet.. (second life stage T minus 6 months - is it strange that I’m excited!). I have no doubt the way I express and relate will change at this point. I plan to age like a fine wine… come at me refinement and distillation.

I have a single channel - and it’s unconscious! The channel of the Alpha (my design sun and mercury having a date). I can see how resources and energy are best arranged in a system which means I am often looked to as a guide or leader in a given situation. I also have the ability for natural specialisation which once processed internally can be externalised and influence those around me. This energy can feel foreign to me and I tend to recognise it’s presence retrospectively.

My completely open solar plexus has given me some deep lessons in the waves of others and I find it easy to recognise when someone is in the thralls of their emotional process.

I have direct light determination - can you tell by the images? I like light. I like watching what light does to things. Light and I have a love affair. Practically this means I operate best in the mornings. I get up earlier and go to sleep earlier. And I like to eat my dinner by 4-5pm. I digest and alchemise the information and wisdom I collect best in the light.

I have taste cognition. Do the taste / dining metaphors and descriptions give me away? Things in my environment need to be to my taste. I am particular. I like beautiful things. I like complex flavours. My experience of taste is an almost pickiness of what is around me (including what is on my plate). My defined G also guides me directly to the things that are to MY taste.

I have narrow valleys environment. Music and the sounds around me are very important. I like to be at the centre of the information. I like to see what is happening and feel like I am at the source so that I can both observe and share at the right times.

I have guilt motivation and possibility view. I see the highest and most unimaginable possibility in everything. I can imagine things working out in a way that has a lot of people baffled (the best when things do turn out the way I imagined). I do this for me and I can see the wildest possible futures for you too. I am also motivated to provide solutions. I can see when things aren’t being used to their greatest efficiency or where there is power left over for something that is not yet manifest - I act to shed light on these things.

I think that is a plate full. If you want to know more about me (the non HD lens) head here for dessert

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A love affair with the light. Direct Light. The absolute easiest for me write about. The thing, that after being told I was a projector energy type was the most resonant in my system.

Light and I are in a constant dance. I chase it. I crave it. I am enthralled in its ever evolving nature. The way light touches something and completely changes the reality. The tango it does with the shadows on the wall. The way it keeps time moving in front of my eyes. I can’t remember a time when I didn’t need the light to be right. To be to my taste. All of these things, this relationship I have with light pre-dates my awareness of Human Design. It’s a fascination I have naturally.

I am drawn to the mornings. To the changing of the light - the rising and the setting. I feel most alive in the morning light. And I am naturally less receptive in the dark. These tendencies again, pre-date my awareness of Human Design.

I love that about this system. I love that it manages to reach into my natural tendencies and confirm something I was already gravitating towards as something that is correct for me. Something I already knew was correct for me. My determination is Direct Light. And it makes soo. Much. Sense.

I digest things more easily in the morning, during the day, in the light - food, information. I find my flow in the day. Even though, I had a natural inclination towards the light there were (and who are we kidding, are) times when I fall into the practiced norms that don’t exactly revere this part of my design like they should. This is the part of the experiment that make me trust the process so much more. Playing with things like direct light in my day, confirms just how my system is supposed to function. Free of discomfort. Easily digesting the things around me.

It is abundantly clear to me that I’m lucky (or am I in the right environment, around the right energy using my right determination and cognition to guide). I have found that I can eat most things and digest them. With the exception of a time when I was making dietary choices to align with a certain personality or a certain character in the world (in which I would then convince myself I couldn’t digest certain things) my body doesn’t struggle with digestion. Unless. I eat after dark.

I’ve always sort of known this. But I was never religious in the execution of direct light eating. Oh, husband is getting home a little late, I’ll wait to eat together. Regardless of what the meal was (could be the lightest of light salads) and I would still feel weighed down. It is incredible, the difference in my body when I honour that particular aspect of my design. A natural inclination was great, but a weightlessness when intentionally played with is life giving.

I played with this experiment while on a recent holiday and without a doubt it was confirmed each time. I’m curiously now playing with the type of food I eat at different times of the day. Does it get even more delicious if I lighten my “evening” meal (which I aim to now have at 4pm). Does it feel even more nourishing to eat things grown in the light? What about sitting in the sun while I eat? Do I absorb information better with the sun on my face? Does my work flow more easily when I do it at the sunny outdoor table? All delicious pieces of my experiment.

Determination isn’t necessarily something you’d learn about straight away on your human design journey. It certainly wasn’t in the first reading I got. It’s no where to be mentioned in the definitive book of HD. But to me, it is such a confirmation of the system. And one of the easiest things to experiment with. Can I feed myself (food, information, people) in the right way? And how does that effect the way that I metabolise those things. Does it increase their nutrition in my system and my ability to absorb them in their potency. These are the sorts of questions I live to play with. Because to me, these are the sorts of things that lead to my lightness. My ability to thrive in my life. And by happy byproduct, my ability to perpetuate my possibility view of “how good could it actually get”. Determination feels like a little stepping stone to that pondering.

Determination - the way your vehicle is designed to take in information, food and other nourishment. Determination is part of the Primary Health System which aims to optimise the brains development and capacity.

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The secret Hermit. Or maybe not so secret if you actually know me. I’ve always been someone who tends towards crowd-less places. I like my own space. I like to be alone - I thrive on my own. It feels glorious, spacious, delicious, freeing. But in the same breath, I am always about the other. I need to know the other. I crave depth through interaction. I crave juicy, intimate relationships. I always feel a pressure to impact or influence in some way - like I need to make a difference and that difference will need to be through my interaction with the other. And there’s the contraindication - the pressure to feel the passion, purpose and impact through the other and the deep need to be no where near anyone else’s aura while I figure out my process and the selfish tendency (or perhaps the open ego’s tendency to question if this is worth sharing or if it would support anyone to share) to keep my words or creations for myself. You can say, this leaves me feeling confused quite often and if I’m not careful about using my authority to decide when to interact and when to not I end up bitter (soooo bitter).

My design has an interesting way of explaining this. Like with everything I discover about HD - it’s just a language to explain the the patterns and tendencies I already know I had. I have a 4/6 profile. My 4th line knows (consciously) how important my relationships are and how the quality of these present me with my opportunities in life. My 6th line wants to stand back from it all - observe, remain that little bit removed. There’s already an interesting dynamic here - the 6th line body (especially once up on the roof - will confirm or debunk soon) - wants to be separate, be removed so that it can integrate all the 3rd lining that’s happened in relationship and life up until then while the 4th wants to continue to put energy into relationship. My collective circuitry also knows that the wisdom I find on the roof will need to be shared - I will need to be seen, witnessed and recognised in order to experience my signature of success.

Here’s the kicker though - on top of this dynamic and while I am a 4/6, I also have seven 6th line activations and seven 2nd line activations. A large chunk of my design wants to go off and do its thing, having its knowings, watching, observing and alchemising the wisdom in peace. Is it any wonder that when my coach asked in a session what kind of elder I wanted to be or who I wanted to be I answered with the witch in the hut - the wise, role model who is called in. I imagine that people seek her out for the wisdom she’s cooked up in her hut - the experience, insights and things she’s witnessed all distilled into potent invocations shared with those that it will benefit after they recognise and invite her to share. I pat myself on the back at the accuracy of that imagery when I look at my design (that answer was given without a thought to my design and well before I had any real awareness of it beyond the very surface).

My design also demands a lot of hermitting from me (which, hey, gives me a permission slip to embrace what I’ve always felt). Space to be in my process. Alone. My seven open centres demand I remove myself from the world to empty out so that I can feel who I actually am and understand what’s happening around me from that place rather than my not-self. My Projector nature and my open sacral wants to rest and for me true, deep rest is alone.

My 2nd and 6th line activations are mostly in tribal and collective circuitry - so even though they are pulling me into my own process I am innately aware that at some stage I need to be called out, recognised or witnessed in what I’m learning here in order to share what I’ve learned and support those around me through the wisdom of my learnings. Meanwhile ALL of my 4th line activations are in individual circuitry. Which confirms to me that my seeking of truth, insights and breakthroughs through my creative process in the world is eventually to be externalised - but only once it has done it’s work on me and I’ve been able to mutate my own energetics around them. Which also requires that aspect of aloneness to integrate before externalising to empower those around me through my discoveries. Another interesting aspect includes the fact that my only channel (unconscious channel of alpha) is the voice I will use to express a lot of what I discover as part of my individual circuity and my concentrated G centre activations - and this means that when I choose to share with the collective what I’ve learned I will distill those parts that will benefit everyone and keep the rest squirrelled away for my own process.

I have gate 1.4 as my personality sun gate - The Creative - Self-expression - “Aloneness as the medium for creativity”. I am wildly aware of my need to be alone, with the right acoustics, in the right environment for my creativity to tap in. It is abundantly clear to me that when I am removed from my usual habitat (especially when I am not on my home soil) and have access to newness, alone, my words flow like a tap, my taste for aesthetics is turned on, my ability to see and create art (whatever that may be) is heightened.

I feel all of this deeply through the tug of war that takes place inside me. Constantly a question of do I have energy for this interaction - do I want to give my energy to this relationship? Do I need alone time to integrate this or distill what I’m learning but in the same breath - the deep need to impact even though my words haven’t quite formulated into what it is I am sharing. Do I need to externalise and self project what it is I’m trying to figure out? Who is the right person for the right occasion that will allow me to do this fully? Do I need to borrow some sacral energy to get to the crux of my creation or do I need to be still for it to find clarity? Do I need to witness something in the other before I can fully understand what I’m trying to learn? I can see that as the 2nd and 6th lines pulling me in towards myself so that I gain access to my creative magic and insight, followed by a little externalisation of what I’ve learned (self projected authority just intensify this) to solidify the concept or idea which takes us full circle to someone recognising that, calling it out or diligently watching me model what I’ve learnt (hence I end up sharing or supporting - BUT only after aloneness and processing of it).

I do wonder whether being on the roof will intensify the extreme of this duality I feel. I’m curious to see what my 6th lines find wisdom in and how the eventual sharing of this will look. I know and can see my current tendency to create just for me. I share my vibration, my attention and my presence but most of the things I create remain hidden - they just don’t feel like the thing that I’m here to share yet. And not that I’m not happy with them but perhaps there’s a lack of recognition for the things that are stored away in my stash. Or the timing on those things just isn’t quite ready. Or maybe, I make the art for creation sake so that I can embody the concepts and role model them without the need for a visual or a word. Maybe the hermitting allows me to distill the frequency into my being and allow my projector aura to do the work for me rather than sharing the physical manifestations of these things - who knows!

Human design in relationship fascinates me. I think the energy around me has always effected me but having a language and a sense of awareness around what my own design is has allowed me to distill what it is exactly that I’m experiencing from different people or even in crowds when I know I’ll be experiencing so many different auras. For me that awareness allows a much greater depth of compassion and understanding in relationship. When you realise the billions of different design combinations the understanding that no one will function quite the same allows me to accegress a deeper acceptance. And understanding the designs of those closest to me gives me so much more insight and clarity around what is mine and what is. What is me, what is my not-self and why I feel the way I do around certain people.

I suppose the greatest conditioning comes from those you spend most of your time with me. When you’re young it’s most likely your family. For me it was my mum. When you think about a child’s life you begin to see how they are never really alone - never truly in their own aura for unless maybe they have their own room to sleep in. But even so, depending on family dynamics, there are still always other auras in the house. It means as children we don’t get a great sense of clarity on what we are and what we aren’t. Who we are gets muddled in with who is around us and for a lot of us we might not get to feel the difference of being alone in our aura for an extended period of time until we move out (and by that time we’ve probably got a sense of “who we are” and what our personality is based on composite energy around us). I think the beauty of human design and especially the beauty of it for young people is that the earlier we have the awareness of our design the less conditioning we have to do later (the longer we think we’re something we’re not the harder it is eventually to come to who we are).

When I started looking at the charts of the people around me I found it funny that I grew up with a 3/5 Manifesting Generator and from age 14 started dating a 3/5 Manifesting Generator (who is now my husband). Not only was I drawn towards the same type of energy and the same profile but they also share 5 centres (root, sacral, solar plexus, G and throat). I assume that the comfort and security of having access to that definition and the association of safety in my childhood from my mums design probably gave me a faster sense of those things around my partner (this being a complete assumption because as a 14 year old I most definitely did not have the awareness of any of that). And obviously there is nothing to do with this information but hold it in my awareness and observe what how I feel around both of them, curious about the similarities and the differences. Storing away tid bits of how my design allows me to experience other people.

I’m also fascinated by how my chart works specifically with my husbands (since there is 15 years of conditioning going on there!). Don’t forget that when I say we’re being conditioning by those around us, that’s not a bad thing. That is the completely natural experience of the open centres. The awareness is the important part here - that saves us from becoming over identified with a way of being that is not for our system (that our system can’t sustain and could well lead to dis-function). I also count myself lucky to have lived alone when I was 17 for 3 years. I am grateful that I had that time to feel what it was like to be me without anyone (and at that age, while part of who we are and how we interact with the world around us are still solidifying). I moved to a new city and lived in my own space - this gave me a beautiful container to experiment with how I like things (decorated, when and what to eat, how to structure my day without having to considering another) - looking back, I was drawn to so many aspects of my design (taste, valleys, direct light) naturally when I got to be on my own.

My husband and I create and 8-1 composite chart - meaning that my 2 centres and his 7 centres together create a chart with 8 centres defined and only 1 left open (the ego!). What that means is that around him I have access to the defined energy of an extra 6 centres that I’m not used to having (and what it means for him is that he has access to only one thing that differs to his design - he gets a defined spleen).

I feel his design the most from the root and the sacral. And as I wrote that I laughed in my head thinking - actually I feel all his centres. I feel everything that is not me very clearly when I am around him. But the sacral and root are my crux - these are the ones I over identify with and these are the ones I can feel most potently in my body when I do that (physical burn out). I marvel at how he can do 12-14 hour days of work and not be a complete blob. I wonder how it is he can enjoy working under a deadline (and trust me he does - he thrives under pressure, it’s when his MG energy gets used in the most productive way and he’s very aware of this tendancy). I feel his defined root & sacral centre when he comes home and I suddenly feel the need to buzz around.. tidying, pressure to straighten up, pressure to be busy before I can sit back down. Which is remarkably different to how I am on my own - in my own energy I am quite happy being horizontal and doing not much of anything. I feel those centres at night (plus the busy busy ajna and head). I’ve always known that I liked to sleep alone but there’s that societal conditioning saying that a separate bed spells the end of the relationship - that there is something wrong when a couple chooses to sleep apart. I sleep so much more soundly and restfully alone. Allowing my aura to empty out from all of that energy gives me a fresh start in the morning. The awareness of my body’s need for this is life changing and gave me a way to explain this need to my husband outside of the should’s or stories people tell around this.

Our collectively open ego is easily identified as our repetitive and spiralling wound. Throughout my coaching and self development journey the thing that I spiral back around to is always worth, contribution, am I doing enough, am I giving enough? And I can’t count the amount of times I’ve heard him say, “I should be doing more” (when in actual fact he is already doing more than enough - usually revolving around work). We feel the need to do more. Always. We feed on the other’s experience of the open ego and it’s taken so much work, spiralling around and around for me to (most of the time) get to a place where I no longer associate doing more with worth. I also find it curious that each one of us finds it easy to see how the other is doing enough - but seeing that in ourselves is so much harder! Saying that I also find the my guilt motivation, his root centre and the fact that we both have possibility view keeps us moving towards wanting to do more anyway (hopefully when healthy, not from a place of unworthiness but from a place of clean motivation). When we’re together we can’t just leave something alone in a state below it’s expanded potential - we can see the highest possibility of something and how we can build it (think cafe expansion, think how can we make this business bigger and better, think we aren’t just going to move away to the country and be, we’re going to build airbnbs or flip houses because we can see the possibility of freshness and beauty from our shared gate 1). When healthy - I love this aspect of us. When unhealthy we start to spiral in our own ways and devalue ourselves, our time and our contribution and the awareness of that is what can bring us back into balance (and then help the other come back to balance too).

I’m currently playing around with the differences in our type. His enveloping manifesting generator aura to my focused projector aura. The knowledge that he needs to respond to things is letting me play with how I interact in our relationship. I am so used to asking broad questions and getting bitter when he can’t make a decision. The experimentation of this or that / yes or no questions is expansive. I am much more likely to receive an answer I can do something with when I interact with his energy his way and he doesn’t experience the frustration of trying to come up with a decision. My self-projectedness also helps in that I will generally just speak the options into being - my authority will give me the options and his authority will make the decision (and either way, I’ve got something I’m happy with as long as my tone gave me a yes to the options I’m providing in the first place). I also love playing with my natural ability to guide energy and how that works in relationship. Sam Zagar (brilliant S Projector to work with!) gave me the awareness that as a non-sacral being who can guide energy I have been (even unconsciously) guiding my MG towards his satisfaction (because when he’s satisfied so am I because I get high of that sacral frequency). Our relationship becomes a system in which my natural gifts guide us back to our authorities and towards decisions that lead to our signatures. I can naturally see aspects or our life that cause my husband frustration and others that give him satisfaction and our Projector/MG dynamic with an open invitation for my guidance in our life together allows me to guide him towards the things that he is most naturally satisfied with (obviously this comes with a good deal of third line energy from him so just because I’ll guide us there doesn’t mean it’s an easy or straightforward process). I love this awareness though, that when he is happy and satisfied with things in life my experience of our definition is so much sweeter - this knowledge has also allowed me to look back on situations in our relationship and give compassion to my tendencies (in places where I would potentially have preciously judged myself for tending to his needs etc) knowing that in these situations I was actually tending to my energy as well.

I have more things to say. On how I experience his triple split definition in comparison to my single definition. How I’m experimenting with our cognition and determination (taste vs smell / calm vs direct). The presence of our electromagnetic channels (judgement, structuring, awakening and exploration). Our similarities - we share 8 gate activations). Being a non-emotional in relationship with an emotional who has the channel of emoting and has been taught that emotions are not for expressing. My experience of taking in frustrated sacral energy vs satisfied sacral energy and how clear as day these two present themselves in response to different people and places. But I think, this musing is long enough - I’ll save something for the blog.

I love this system and the depth of compassion and understanding it lets me have for individuals and how different people show up in relationship (and of course self-compassion). I have so much to say about HD and relationship (and there is most probably my 4th line need to externalise my own experience and my fascination with the quality and depth of relationship that is possible). But this will do for now!

The Brain’s Bio - the way I explain who I am, where I’ve come from and what I do in the “normal” world!

I am just shy of 30 - thank you and good riddance to the extended Saturn return. I live in a small town in the middle of the outback - which I have a love hate relationship with. The heat in summer makes me want to dig a hole to other side of the earth, then every winter I settle back into delight. I went to uni straight out of school and lived alone at the age of 17 after moving to my capital city. I studied nutrition and exercise science - considering I’ve never used the degree I’m happy I at least picked something interesting! Those 3 years I spent doing long distance with my high school boyfriend - who is now my husband (solidly in his conditioning for 15 years and counting now haha!).

I worked in a cafe out of uni (before doing some travel), a little admin, a few years as a part time travel agent, I partially studied some yoga teacher training, meditation teaching and life coaching. I have now realised I’m not built for formal education - the pressure of deadlines and assignments is a no for me! About 5 years ago I bought the cafe from a friend which I have since expanded into a new building (during covid - brilliant plan) during which I got to redesign the whole thing - my satiated creative mind thrived, my patience (or lack of) was a pain. I love having a small team. I love having a business that allows me to create and play. I love having the cafe as my system that I get to relate to. Business is my biggest expander. Nothing has made me grow and hold space for new iterations of myself more.

For 10 years travel was a big part of my heart. For some reason (cough cough) I have gravitated away from it in the last few years and now have a much greater desire for new roots. I loved the experience of newness. Seeing a new place through a wondrous lens. The joy of new tastes and smells. Old rich culture. Fresh air. I have been to 40 countries. Hiked to Mount Everest Base Camp. Gotten married in Vegas (not by Elvis.. but in front of the Bellagio fountains). Travelled internationally alone on at least 3 times. I have a love affair with Paris even though I hate cities. I know my way around there, we have a past life relationship. I also crave forests and frost. Snowboarding everyday if I could. At some point I realised most of what I wanted was nature. So now I crave a hut in the forest. I want to move somewhere where I can get fresh produce, visit the shores to one side and walk a cold beach. I want to be in reach of the mountains. Close enough civilisation but far enough away to feel alone in the stillness. For now, I’m aiming for Tasmania. It’s also the closest I’ll get to a northern hemisphere climate without moving out of the country.

I have always (even before human design) felt the deep need to understand myself and the people around me. Every modality I tried that helped me feel more myself or more at home in my body I thought I had to take on myself and share. I’ve learned to enjoy the benefits now and stop identifying with each one (except HD.. leave me alone!). I started what people call “the work” I guess in 2018 when it became blatantly obvious to me that I was ill equipped to run a team if I wasn’t comfortable in myself. I needed to learn to set boundaries, to know what was mine and what wasn’t. And to interact with the world in a way so that I didn’t self-abandon at each turn to avoid confrontation or to please some one else. But to also deepen in my capacity for compassion and understanding of those around me. I dip in and out of needing to know myself and falling into a hole of exploring who I am before remembering that this isn’t hard and if I just let go of anything that wasn’t me my answer would be clear (including sometimes the modality that had me in a hold).

Cue Human Design. On top of a few years of coaching now, my own dives in the yogic mindset and meditation, human design gives me a permission slip to let go of all the things I know aren’t me, but was trying to maintain because “I was supposed to”. It gives me a language to describe what I already know and live. And now it gives me a language and system to use to gift others the same permission. Through every modality all I wanted was to feel more myself and to help others feel more of theirselves. This does that. Then the Gene Keys came along and gave me a poetic take on parts of the system. Match made in heaven. I’ve been in relationship with these two systems for a few years now and it’s delicious. It’s a structure that stands sturdy to allow me to expand safely within it.

I love beautiful things. I love poetry. Music is essential. The right music for the right moment. Art and luxurious textures are necessary. I find joy in curating the life around me. I love deep conversations. I love long stories. I love writing. Hence the valley of musings.

And that’s me.

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